For today I am praying for wisdom, strength and courage. To know which way to aim my sails when I am catching no wind and to continue on with the courage to change. Today, I am saying the serenity prayer for a multitude of reasons and my heart is heavy with grief and sorrow on many levels that I won't share here. I am healing, I am acting in new ways and I am trusting God to grow me and continue to show me His way and His direction. Old behaviors have arisen and I have replaced them with new behaviors. I am listening more and thinking less. I am trusting more and feeling my strength grow. I am hoping more for myself, wanting more for myself and respecting myself which is a new concept to me.
I know no matter what storms may blow, and they will come, Jesus is with me. He is molding and making me and knows exactly what I need, when I need it and what I can bear with out breaking.I pray I leave a legacy like Elizabeth Edwards has left her children. A mother who they have watched respect herself. A mother who has been faced with many hard choices to make and has made them with grace and courage. A mother who was gracious and loving and has sought to hold her head high with dignity even though her husband chose trash over a great treasure. A mother I am sure her little ones adored and will greatly miss. I hope she is in heaven dancing on the streets of gold with the One who was faithful to her to the end.
"I do know that when [my children are] older and telling their own children about their grandmother, they will be able to say that she stood in the storm…and when the wind did not blow her way – and it surely has not – she adjusted her sails.”– Elizabeth Edwards