Extreme Insecurities....

The resounding theme in my many meetings is that sex addicts are starving for acceptance. WE are very insecure and we have turned to a very cheap way of receiving that acceptance. With pornography, you never get turned down, you never get told you are worthless, you are never laughed at for the job you have, you never get told you are fat and ugly, all you get is this smiling person on the other end who makes you think you are at that moment attractive to someone. It's cheap, it's pathetic, it's weak, but it is what I am seeing, hearing, and feeling as a sex addict. I want to be stronger, I want to be anything but what I have just said, but something, somehow, somewhere I have ended up at this point. My goal is to hang onto 2 Corinthians 1:3-11. Specifically verse 3 where he says "God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort".... But that is a process, and right now just words, but hopefully I will begin to feel that comfort, because right now I feel like a sex addict.....

-C